patience
emotions are a funny thing. i’m realizing how strongly i am guided by mine, and that’s not necessarily a good thing. when i’m in the depths of pain or heartbreak, i want to do ANYTHING to stop it, or at least take some sort of action that i think is befitting of the anguish i feel. sever a relationship, write a letter, appeal to someone’s feelings…and on and on. but sometimes it’s immature, and hasty, and unecessary. sometimes things work themselves out naturally over time in a much better way than i could have tried to force. and while i may be able to temporarily numb the pain or kid myself in to thinking i’ve done something good for myself, in the end it just makes me look like a basket case who is overreacting and becoming too emotional over things that don’t really necessitate it. it can be very embarrassing.
i want to learn to ride that wave of pain out, instead of acting out like a child to try and stop it.
